I can’t tell you how devastated I was for three days thinking that I had completely lost my blog. For those three days, when I thought all had been lost (all, but the Kicking and Screaming side of things) I couldn’t stop thinking. I slept really badly, or more, I slept like I used to before I met my shrink. Every night I had three new posts in the making and no where to put them.
And now? Blah. Can’t think.
I think part of the reason is I found a new blog.
There is some sort of unwritten rule that if you read a blog, and you own a blog, then you should advertise that you read each other’s blog’s in the blogroll. For the most part I do that.
But this new blog is, well. Personal. I don’t want to share it. I can not explain it in the slightest. I haven’t seen photo’s, have just a nick name and an age. I don’t know where he comes from but slowly, as I move through his pages, I am learning where he has been.
It’s all different. His life to mine. But it’s all the same. And reading his pages makes me feel like I could be reading an old diary entry from my own deep and dark past.
Somehow it’s given me writer’s block. I don’t know what to put here even though I want to put it here.
MOST of what i write is either deleted or saved on my computer never to be seen again… I kind of pick through that mess and find things to post. When I first read what you wrote here today the first thing that came to my mind was a book I read many years ago when I first got it in my mind that I wanted to write… it’s called:
If You Want to Write: A Book about Art, Independence and Spirit
by Brenda Ueland
it’s really an incredible book… I find it goes beyond just writing into something else… more of a book about why to write more than how to write… highly recommended reading!
I’ve always found writer’s block to be too many things on the mind to write about… and I find the best thing to do is to open up a word processor program or grab a pen and paper and just write it… write like a madman… it totally changes the state of mind even if it is never ever shared with anyone.