Once again, I found this going through my old word documents. This one, is just a few days before I admitted myself to hospital.

Jaxon’s crying has started up again. He hasn’t slept for more than half an hour today, I am so tired and sore from carrying him to shut him up. We went shopping and he fell asleep, thank goodness…but it all started up as soon as we got home. At one point I put him down and he started crying within 3 minutes and then he shut up. I was all happy and relieved it was finally over. Tim was watching TV so I stayed in here on the computer. When I went out into the lounge room I found out why Jaxon had stopped crying. Daddy was cuddling him on the couch!!!

I know some degree of crying is normal but this is out of control. Something other than reflux must be wrong. And it can’t be normal for a baby to only sleep for half an hour in a 24 hour period. He is wide awake and crying all the time.

And you know what? I am SO SICK of advice right now. I know people are just trying to help but we are honestly trying everything to make him feel better and nothing is working. So MY Mum and Tim’s Mum can STOP telling us that massage will help, or that bathing will help, his chair will help, going for a walk will help. He scream’s his lungs out while I try to massage him and he cried all through tonight’s bath. His chair hasn’t been used for days because he just wont tolerate it!! There is just no end. So they can stop telling me those things!

I feel like I might as well be raising my child on a deserted island for all the help we have.