For the past 4 months now I’ve wanted a new camera. Not just any old camera, but a NIKON D90.

That’s a $2000 camera. It’s a Digital SLR camera, and despite the fact that it just broke our bank, it’s a low end DSLR camera.

I’ve sold countless household goods to get the money to get my camera for Christmas. We’ve sold the old TV and the old pool. We’ve sold the bassinet and the old water bed and all sorts of small things that I couldn’t even begin to list them for you.

Tim was beginning to wonder if he didn’t have a “for sale” sign on his back and if he wouldn’t be safer if he hand cuffed himself to the bed so I couldn’t hand him over to his new owner’s while he slept.

Today we went Christmas shopping and got my camera (and a new couch!).There is a HUGE problem with it though. The battery, takes three hours to charge.

So the camera is like this brick sitting on my computer desk that I can look at but can’t really use. I can’t play with it until the battery is ready.

It’s sitting here looking at me, teasing me. Taunting me. I’ve found myself cleaning obsessively. I was so determined not to think about it sitting there on the desk that I nearly scrubbed a hole through the kitchen benches. I’ve lost my husband. He went for a ride to get away from the madness. This blog entry has only taken up five minutes and 22 seconds of my time. I was hoping for more.

Aside from waiting for Jaxon to be born, and of course his MRI and CT date…this might be the longest wait I’ve had to endure for a very long time!