It seems like I do a lot of bitching around here. It could be true.

I’d just like to take this opportunity to say that a very special little boy and his mother made me see something very important. They’ve made me see that no matter how many physio appointment’s I have to go to, no matter how many days and hour’s I have to put Jaxon’s shoes on, no matter how many nights he stays up crying because of his non existant teeth and no matter how many time’s he refuses to eat my food…that I am still one very VERY lucky Mumma to have him.

None of that stuff matters. The stuff that annoy’s and upsets me. Because Jaxon is alive and is going to be here tomorrow, bung arm, crooked neck, club foot and all. I can not express how deeply I have been affected by Joshua and his mother. I feel like the luckiest person in the world simply because Jaxon is here and is crying and is having phsyio. They have shown me that no matter what, I am lucky. I am so lucky.

It doesn’t seem the right thing to thank them. But if I could and I could justify it, I would. Perhaps I could just say thank you, for sharing your journey with me no matter how painful it was. Thank you for your honesty and for letting me see your pain and your strength. Thank you for showing me that what I go through as a mother on a daily basis is all very simple and short lasting.

Thank you for opening my very closed eyes. And thank you for opening up my heart to the very special little man that I was sometime’s looking past because of the way his life was affecting me.

Most importantly, thank you for giving me my son.

You can read Joshua’s and Susie’s story here.

http://mnssams.blogspot.com/